Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Short Struggling

Lord God, it seems like I am struggling to remain good . I made a vow "I rather have death than sin," like St. Dominique once said but now it seems like I am drooping in sin at times.  I sometimes wish i had died sooner so that I wouldn't face the worries of ever sinning . But I believe its past that.  At times I no longer have the urge for praying, just the other night I believe and this morning I skipped my prayers to Mother  Mary and Father Joseph. Who I love so dearly and don't want to lose.

I feel I am not really accomplishing much in this world , And at times I feel like I really am an annoyance to most people, a burden, a nobody.

I  also feel guilty about noticing someone who I know and feel like saying 'hi' to but don't greet them or talk to them either for the reasons of being judged by them or by my laryngtis.
        While in my heart I care so much about everyone and so much want to make them happy. I also fell sinful about not being as kind and loving as I always was to my parents. I love my parents so much but it seems like I have I been pushing them off and off for my homework and long studying time. Haven't been as kind and loving as I should be towards them.

Maybe if I was just out of school I'd feel better and happier... I pray that I could be in a state of bliss with you again God, But the thought of "Heaven" a so sweet heaven on earth I once exprienced seems far..

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

I think from now on, I'll make this blog be a diary to my heart :)
So please don't be suprized by my new style of updates

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin.
Rejoice, my heart! And let me praise again,
The Lord my God, who is my rock and stay
Help me to get through these rough 2 years!
 Keep me strict upon His straight, plain way.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Don't be selfish and full of pride; don't live to make a great impression on others. Be humble thinking everyone is better than yourself.-Philippians

Monday, April 9, 2012

I have no interest in the world anymore


Servants of Jesus are only interested in one thing and that is to serve the Lord Jesus Christ and please him They are only interested in what Jesus is saying to them today, they are not interested in video games , TV , they are not concerned about turning on the TV and wasting hours of time, they are only concerned about the kingdom of God because they know that is this kingdom that they serve they know that its the kingdom they are striving towards.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Sketches of Our Lady :)

While I  finally had the free time from  homework  I decided and just had  to sketch a picture of Mother Mary.