Short Struggling

Lord God, it seems like I am struggling to remain good . I made a vow "I rather have death than sin," like St. Dominique once said but now it seems like I am drooping in sin at times.  I sometimes wish i had died sooner so that I wouldn't face the worries of ever sinning . But I believe its past that.  At times I no longer have the urge for praying, just the other night I believe and this morning I skipped my prayers to Mother  Mary and Father Joseph. Who I love so dearly and don't want to lose.

I feel I am not really accomplishing much in this world , And at times I feel like I really am an annoyance to most people, a burden, a nobody.

I  also feel guilty about noticing someone who I know and feel like saying 'hi' to but don't greet them or talk to them either for the reasons of being judged by them or by my laryngtis.
        While in my heart I care so much about everyone and so much want to make them happy. I also fell sinful about not being as kind and loving as I always was to my parents. I love my parents so much but it seems like I have I been pushing them off and off for my homework and long studying time. Haven't been as kind and loving as I should be towards them.

Maybe if I was just out of school I'd feel better and happier... I pray that I could be in a state of bliss with you again God, But the thought of "Heaven" a so sweet heaven on earth I once exprienced seems far..

I think from now on, I'll make this blog be a diary to my heart :)
So please don't be suprized by my new style of updates

Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin.
Rejoice, my heart! And let me praise again,
The Lord my God, who is my rock and stay
Help me to get through these rough 2 years!
 Keep me strict upon His straight, plain way.

Don't be selfish and full of pride; don't live to make a great impression on others. Be humble thinking everyone is better than yourself.-Philippians

I have no interest in the world anymore

 

Servants of Jesus are only interested in one thing and that is to serve the Lord Jesus Christ and please him They are only interested in what Jesus is saying to them today, they are not interested in video games , TV , they are not concerned about turning on the TV and wasting hours of time, they are only concerned about the kingdom of God because they know that is this kingdom that they serve they know that its the kingdom they are striving towards.

Sketches of Our Lady :)

While I  finally had the free time from  homework  I decided and just had  to sketch a picture of Mother Mary.

What I want to become

More than anything in the world I have finally realized I want to become Saintly I no longer have my dreams of marrying a special person and being a mother I want to become a mother to all. It  make clear sense to me everything now and I feel happy like never before and I'm so thankful God has given the chance. I can almost see Heaven

Animals speak with pure emotion.Its important to me to show the animals the attention and love they deserve so should you!

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
 Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
 where there is injury, pardon;
 where there is doubt, faith;
 where there is despair, hope;
 where there is darkness, light;
 where there is sadness, joy;

O Divine Master, grant that I may not
so much seek to be consoled as to console;
 to be understood as to understand;
 to be loved as to love.

For it is in giving that we receive;
 it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
 and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

A message to my close friend who is turning away from God.

You knew him but why did you reject him!The Devil wants you to perish with him in hell he is just tricking you .There is hell and it is no lie and there is a Heaven and Paradise. There are also others who are walking into this place.Don't walk away from him I beg you. He is with you all the time in your heart you should focus on your happiness first rather than happiness in worldly things heartfelt work is true happiness always worry about the content of your soul.

Urgent Message from God

While in Heaven, Jesus said, "I will come for a holy people and I will come soon for My church." But two weeks ago the Lord told me, "Daughter, I take pleasure in what you are doing, that you are fulfilling what I have given you, but do not tell My people that I am coming soon. Tell My people that I am coming right away." Again the Lord said, "Tell My people that I am coming right away and that I am coming for a holy people. Tell My people that only the holy ones, only the holy ones will see Me!...And do not be silent: Keep on declaring what I have told you.If you don't go and tell that person their blood will be poured over you. If they come to me and repent they will have an account with me.Go and tell that I have chosen you as one of my watchman.For it means you will tell the truth.You must go and tell all that I have told you"

“Oh most high glorious God enlighten the darkness of my heart and help me to have a pure heart. Help my daily actions be of love towards others and grace of your works.Help me to do good to help others.          I wish I was already up there with you Mother and Father to see you.''

"The Lord will make us suffer but give us even more Strength."

“Don’t worry, I will make you suffer, but I will also give you the strength” - Jesus reveals to me. - “I desire that your soul be purified and tried with daily hidden martyrdom; don’t be frightened if I allow the Devil to torment you, and the world to disgust you, because nobody will win against those who suffer under the cross for my love, for I have decided to protect them. “

These were the words St. Padre Pio spoke about during his talk with Jesus with his most fearful encounters he would then recieve.And with that the Lord blessed him in so many ways.

Trip to Cambodia

At school there was this scholarship trip to travel to Cambodia to help people in 3rd world countries for my school's international program. I remember hearing about the program trip last year and now there having the same trip again to help the kids there in Cambodia by building schooling and helping teach at schools and helping the people there in general. I immediately wanted to go as soon as I heard the news. More than anything in this world I want to help people , In a country where help is needed the most and war is around and poverty is present in everyday life. I seek to help those. But my parents disagreed to send me to such a country and called it a death sentence for me I believe they must have thought I thought it was just some fun vacation trip to Asia but I didn't at all think about that I mean of course I have to say Cambodia is a beautiful place without so much built up cities and towns like we have here in America but I know my help could be needed there.

 For a long time I always remember  being a hungry girl but I realized I am not hungry for food !Which I always eat and nevers fills me up.
 I am hungry for work! And I wish with all my heart to be one of the chosen ones whose privilege it will be to sacrifice themselves for the sake of others. I am not afraid of any disease or the thought of dying it would be my greatest delight to help those in poor countries.
I am not sure how long my impatient soul can last in a place where I live where I am sheltered from the outside and must stay in doors all of the time besides school . There is so much I want to do in this world before my death comes I want to do many good in my lifetime and many good works.I sometimes fear my end might be nearer than others .The human soul knows when death is near for them. I have had a case of a near death expriences before but God made me live and I believe there is something I need to do in this world!I feel like I am getting closer to what I was suppose to do by going on missionaries in other countries like these one.

Homework :/

I am usually the person who always completes homework but I rather much study about the lives of Saints more than anything else! Homework now seems to bore me even more now than usual but I know I have to complete it of course! I just hope that I won't be so stressed about homework and get farther from God because right now I feel so close to God more than ever before I don't want to do homework I just want to rejoice and stay in peace of his presence.Sometimes I wish I lived in simpler times were women didn't have to go to school and were educated at home .

A New Day~

Its good to that on my first day back from  school all the drama from last year is gone there is no longer any troubles with everyone it is wiped away clean and new beginnings are starting! People are changing really changing. I can even see it in there hearts and it can be seen in the things they are doing people are becoming more open and not so closed off  :) and beautiful new friendships are being made and even more beautiful  smiles this year.This is more than what I dreamed of Dear Lord God Thank you

Hello First Blog :)

Hello there (: I am Danielle just a simple girl who wishes to become a nun someday and become a pure-hearted person just as pure-hearted if  possible as Mother Mary the woman I admire most in this world who has helped me in so many ways and always has been there for me.I'm not sure exactly why I created a blog post but I felt the urge to make one  after I heard about Blessed James Alberione And Saint Therese who made writings about all of the things God has done for them and his glory. I wanted to do the same and share his glory and by that I made a blog post . I couldn't sleep all night and so I thought it was a sign for me  to create a blog post and go on with my idea of creating writings of all the things that happen to me in my life and all of God's Glory I see everyday in my life.